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الجمعة، 27 أكتوبر 2006

Why Am I Still So Affected?

Please!!! Free me from her grasp..

it's already been a year and a half, 456 days..isn't it enough already? i know i'm a sinner who deserved to be punished but i've really been through a lot..erase her from my memories please..

a few hours ago, i've pissed many people off..i wanted to apologize..but will anyone accept my apologies even if i mean it sincerely? well, perhaps i know the reason to why they wont forgive me..i'm a big fucker, right?

you are not the one at fault..i am..

i couldn't control my emotions n let them take control of me..im such an asshole..

you were right to leave me..

I'M A BASTARD!!!

Why Am I Still So Affected?

Please!!! Free me from her grasp..

it's already been a year and a half, 456 days..isn't it enough already? i know i'm a sinner who deserved to be punished but i've really been through a lot..erase her from my memories please..

a few hours ago, i've pissed many people off..i wanted to apologize..but will anyone accept my apologies even if i mean it sincerely? well, perhaps i know the reason to why they wont forgive me..i'm a big fucker, right?

you are not the one at fault..i am..

i couldn't control my emotions n let them take control of me..im such an asshole..

you were right to leave me..

I'M A BASTARD!!!

السبت، 21 أكتوبر 2006

It's Been A While

today, i was introduced to a cute girl through my friend because of my current marketing campaign..i could not remember her name, but i would never forget her sweet smile..it was a sign of affection, not for me, but for my dear friend..however, i guess he didnt realize how she felt..in his warm but ignorant eyes, she's always been his friend and will continue to be one in future..love was forbidden for her, as my friend has already been attached..

in the afternoon, the 3 of us met up with his girlfriend..she struggeld within herself and tried to keep the smile on..i guess his girlfriend did notice what was going on afterall..as the couple continue with their sweet acts, she couldn't keep her smile up any longer..her eyes looked tired, with a hint of jealousy and misery..at that moment, i could actually feel the loneliness in her..the only thought that crossed my mind was: can i put that smile back on her face?

even the strongest individuals can crumble..she really did remind me of you because both of you are so similar..the same cheerfulness, the same smile, the same gaze, the same way of speaking and even the same cheeks..


im looking forward to meeting her tomorrow,
looking forward to seeing her smile,
again..

It's Been A While

today, i was introduced to a cute girl through my friend because of my current marketing campaign..i could not remember her name, but i would never forget her sweet smile..it was a sign of affection, not for me, but for my dear friend..however, i guess he didnt realize how she felt..in his warm but ignorant eyes, she's always been his friend and will continue to be one in future..love was forbidden for her, as my friend has already been attached..

in the afternoon, the 3 of us met up with his girlfriend..she struggeld within herself and tried to keep the smile on..i guess his girlfriend did notice what was going on afterall..as the couple continue with their sweet acts, she couldn't keep her smile up any longer..her eyes looked tired, with a hint of jealousy and misery..at that moment, i could actually feel the loneliness in her..the only thought that crossed my mind was: can i put that smile back on her face?

even the strongest individuals can crumble..she really did remind me of you because both of you are so similar..the same cheerfulness, the same smile, the same gaze, the same way of speaking and even the same cheeks..


im looking forward to meeting her tomorrow,
looking forward to seeing her smile,
again..

الثلاثاء، 19 سبتمبر 2006

Mejorar el alisado de las fuentes en Windows

Podemos mejorar el alisado de las fuentes en Windows
simplemente instalando un pequeño programita. La mejora vale la pena.

Mejorar el alisado de las fuentes en Windows

Podemos mejorar el alisado de las fuentes en Windows
simplemente instalando un pequeño programita. La mejora vale la pena.

SHORT-LISTED!!!

official: hey..may i speak to ming jie?
me: speaking..may i know who's this calling?
official: i'm from the aids marketing challenge and i would like to inform you that your team has been short-listed..
me, calmly : oh..


lol..e above is a dialogue from a phone call i received this afternoon..actually, i received 3 missed calls from them earlier but i was sleeping at that time..lol..luckily, they did call back..they could have just chosen another team instead..

well, e key point in this entry is that our team, AIDS Aid, has been short-listed for the marketing challenge! WOW! however, this marks only the beginning of the road ahead..it's going to be tough..

nonetheless, i would like to thank the following people for their contributions up to this point of time: zhu zheng, mingjun, harris, wei jie, khee onn, shu xian and gang, henry and mr jonas lee..

without you guys and gals, we wouldn't have come so far..it's not really that far but it does seem far..ok, my english sucks..lol..=p

as for my team members, there is something that i wanna tell u people but i cant really do it face to face..i know that you people have your personal commitments in your life..2 of you are involved in the IMF and it must be busy for you guys..that's why i didn't want to give you much work as it will only be more stressful to you..when the IMF thing is done with, lets work in a team ya? =D i just recalled something, the team members haven't even met each other yet! lol..rather amazing that we got to this stage when the team members haven't seen the faces of one another yet..since we have already come this far, lets give it our best shot and win this whole challenge! ha..=D

SHORT-LISTED!!!

official: hey..may i speak to ming jie?
me: speaking..may i know who's this calling?
official: i'm from the aids marketing challenge and i would like to inform you that your team has been short-listed..
me, calmly : oh..


lol..e above is a dialogue from a phone call i received this afternoon..actually, i received 3 missed calls from them earlier but i was sleeping at that time..lol..luckily, they did call back..they could have just chosen another team instead..

well, e key point in this entry is that our team, AIDS Aid, has been short-listed for the marketing challenge! WOW! however, this marks only the beginning of the road ahead..it's going to be tough..

nonetheless, i would like to thank the following people for their contributions up to this point of time: zhu zheng, mingjun, harris, wei jie, khee onn, shu xian and gang, henry and mr jonas lee..

without you guys and gals, we wouldn't have come so far..it's not really that far but it does seem far..ok, my english sucks..lol..=p

as for my team members, there is something that i wanna tell u people but i cant really do it face to face..i know that you people have your personal commitments in your life..2 of you are involved in the IMF and it must be busy for you guys..that's why i didn't want to give you much work as it will only be more stressful to you..when the IMF thing is done with, lets work in a team ya? =D i just recalled something, the team members haven't even met each other yet! lol..rather amazing that we got to this stage when the team members haven't seen the faces of one another yet..since we have already come this far, lets give it our best shot and win this whole challenge! ha..=D

الاثنين، 11 سبتمبر 2006

It Hurts...

in case you might be thinking whether this is another "lovey" post, i assure you that there's nothing of tt sort..

this few days, im on e verge of a mental breakdown..seriously, i think i might just go bonkers any moment..my head hurts so much that i feel like racking my brains out of its skull..thoughts, thoughts and MORE THOUGHTS!!! FUCK IT! people always ask me not to think so much or limit my thoughts..they thought i was stupid because i often think too much and create troubles for myself..now, i'm going to repeat myself again..IF I COULD FUCKING CONTROL THE FREQUENCY OF THOUGHTS, I WOULD HAVE DONE SO ALREADY!

infinite voices are screaming in my mind every now and then..they're irritating me! but i cant do a damn thing about it..everytime i tried, e success was short-lived..im really going berserk..whenever there's a wall in front of me, i just feel like crashing my head into it..i wanna end this pain..i dont wanna suffer anymore..

maybe i should consult a psychiatrist soon..i really cant take this anymore..all the negativite feelings are bottling up inside me..hatred, anger, irrtated, frustrated, etc..

i'm going to defeat the devil inside me, all by myself..while i'm fighting, i dont want any comment or interference from anyone..if i lost the battle, please wake me up..

It Hurts...

in case you might be thinking whether this is another "lovey" post, i assure you that there's nothing of tt sort..

this few days, im on e verge of a mental breakdown..seriously, i think i might just go bonkers any moment..my head hurts so much that i feel like racking my brains out of its skull..thoughts, thoughts and MORE THOUGHTS!!! FUCK IT! people always ask me not to think so much or limit my thoughts..they thought i was stupid because i often think too much and create troubles for myself..now, i'm going to repeat myself again..IF I COULD FUCKING CONTROL THE FREQUENCY OF THOUGHTS, I WOULD HAVE DONE SO ALREADY!

infinite voices are screaming in my mind every now and then..they're irritating me! but i cant do a damn thing about it..everytime i tried, e success was short-lived..im really going berserk..whenever there's a wall in front of me, i just feel like crashing my head into it..i wanna end this pain..i dont wanna suffer anymore..

maybe i should consult a psychiatrist soon..i really cant take this anymore..all the negativite feelings are bottling up inside me..hatred, anger, irrtated, frustrated, etc..

i'm going to defeat the devil inside me, all by myself..while i'm fighting, i dont want any comment or interference from anyone..if i lost the battle, please wake me up..

الثلاثاء، 5 سبتمبر 2006

Simply Bored

just took a peek at e blog of my junior..ha..apparently, she has a dream of being a professional dancer..from the comments she gets from others, i guess she's really good at it.ha..i hope she succeeds though im 99% confident that she wont see this..while im typing this, ppl out there will be thinking: man, this guy is really bias..he only wishes her success even though i'm also a dancer and know him better than this junior here..

ha..yup, im bias..and im proud to be bias..=D at least when im bias, my thoughts and words are true and sincere, unlike some fucking hypocrites out there..HEAR THAT, PEOPLE?

last sun n mon, i went to my class chalet..which class? of course TB11 la..lol..not that 4p1 peanutz are forgotten but most of them are in jc so our chalet should be in e december ba..ha..what bout 206? i've been in that class? oops..i forgot..

back to e chalet thingy..how was the chalet? well, it's quite nice..however, i'm not..i was a total asshole, wrecking places and people upside down..but i dont feel guilty..tts my godamn nature..im not gg to lie but i was fucking pissed on e 2nd day..don ask me y, just quit it..im nt gg to reveal anything..

some words are better left unspoken, and some memories are better left forgotten..

ask everyone who knows me better out there and you know im not the kind that goes angry or pissed easily..at times, perhaps i do get pissed a little at times..but to get me into a serious fucked-up mood, it's got to be something serious..just in case you dont know, when im pissed, i just let everything go loose..i dont give a damn what others think, feel or are going react..i dont leave e tiniest space for anyone's feelings in my world at that moment..im totally heartless when i get fucked up..just leave me alone and dont mess with me..if not, i'll be screwing you..for god's sake, im a musician and i have my own strong emotions..in my case, my emotions play a major part in my life..and just because im always smiling at you or doing stupid things, that doesnt mean i dont have a temper..like any other musician, i do have a horrible and destructive one..

enough of the rantings, some people should have already gotten pissed upon reading to this point of my entry..actually, you should feel piss..since i pissed u off, u should feel pissed at me, right? if you dont, perhaps you're one weird guy or gal..ha..feel like giving me a punch, come to my block and we shall beat the shit out of each other..wouldnt that spell fun? lol..

the best thing about the chalet: sun-tanning at the pool with sim seng..ha..

Simply Bored

just took a peek at e blog of my junior..ha..apparently, she has a dream of being a professional dancer..from the comments she gets from others, i guess she's really good at it.ha..i hope she succeeds though im 99% confident that she wont see this..while im typing this, ppl out there will be thinking: man, this guy is really bias..he only wishes her success even though i'm also a dancer and know him better than this junior here..

ha..yup, im bias..and im proud to be bias..=D at least when im bias, my thoughts and words are true and sincere, unlike some fucking hypocrites out there..HEAR THAT, PEOPLE?

last sun n mon, i went to my class chalet..which class? of course TB11 la..lol..not that 4p1 peanutz are forgotten but most of them are in jc so our chalet should be in e december ba..ha..what bout 206? i've been in that class? oops..i forgot..

back to e chalet thingy..how was the chalet? well, it's quite nice..however, i'm not..i was a total asshole, wrecking places and people upside down..but i dont feel guilty..tts my godamn nature..im not gg to lie but i was fucking pissed on e 2nd day..don ask me y, just quit it..im nt gg to reveal anything..

some words are better left unspoken, and some memories are better left forgotten..

ask everyone who knows me better out there and you know im not the kind that goes angry or pissed easily..at times, perhaps i do get pissed a little at times..but to get me into a serious fucked-up mood, it's got to be something serious..just in case you dont know, when im pissed, i just let everything go loose..i dont give a damn what others think, feel or are going react..i dont leave e tiniest space for anyone's feelings in my world at that moment..im totally heartless when i get fucked up..just leave me alone and dont mess with me..if not, i'll be screwing you..for god's sake, im a musician and i have my own strong emotions..in my case, my emotions play a major part in my life..and just because im always smiling at you or doing stupid things, that doesnt mean i dont have a temper..like any other musician, i do have a horrible and destructive one..

enough of the rantings, some people should have already gotten pissed upon reading to this point of my entry..actually, you should feel piss..since i pissed u off, u should feel pissed at me, right? if you dont, perhaps you're one weird guy or gal..ha..feel like giving me a punch, come to my block and we shall beat the shit out of each other..wouldnt that spell fun? lol..

the best thing about the chalet: sun-tanning at the pool with sim seng..ha..

السبت، 2 سبتمبر 2006

I'm Getting a Tagboard

i guess e majority of ppl out dere juz prefer to post their opinions on tagboard instead of e comments section..so, im getting one..ha..but before you actually see one popping out on my site, can someone kindly teach me how to "add" a tagboard? sorry for being dumb..ha..=p

15th of september will be a really memorable day for me..1stly, it's e due submission date for my aids marketing proposal..2ndly, it's my piano grade 8 practical exams..3rdly, the results for my exams will be released on that day..seriously, i hate that day..however, deep within me, i can feel the tingles of excitement..ha..just bring it on, 15th sep!!!

oh ya, if you're wondering why my entries are so essay-styled, here are my reasons.. i want to type in better english so that i can improve on my langauge since im not taking GP..ha..since i'm in polytechnic, i muz be self-oriented and -disciplined enough to monitor my command on my two core languages: english and chinese..i'm really attracted to the idea of learning a 3rd language..however, i feel that i shouldn't be learning a 3rd language now because i still cant handle my languages well enough yet..ha..another reason to why i type in such a manner is beacuse i feel more comfortable communicating this way..

tomorrow, i'll be going to my class chalet..ha..to be honest, i'm afraid that i might still be concentrating on work even when i reach sentosa..even today, my mind was so pre-occupied with work that i couldnt seem to relax when my classmates and i were shopping for the necessary stuff for e chalet..

God Bless Me.





oops..
im a free thinker..ha..=p

I'm Getting a Tagboard

i guess e majority of ppl out dere juz prefer to post their opinions on tagboard instead of e comments section..so, im getting one..ha..but before you actually see one popping out on my site, can someone kindly teach me how to "add" a tagboard? sorry for being dumb..ha..=p

15th of september will be a really memorable day for me..1stly, it's e due submission date for my aids marketing proposal..2ndly, it's my piano grade 8 practical exams..3rdly, the results for my exams will be released on that day..seriously, i hate that day..however, deep within me, i can feel the tingles of excitement..ha..just bring it on, 15th sep!!!

oh ya, if you're wondering why my entries are so essay-styled, here are my reasons.. i want to type in better english so that i can improve on my langauge since im not taking GP..ha..since i'm in polytechnic, i muz be self-oriented and -disciplined enough to monitor my command on my two core languages: english and chinese..i'm really attracted to the idea of learning a 3rd language..however, i feel that i shouldn't be learning a 3rd language now because i still cant handle my languages well enough yet..ha..another reason to why i type in such a manner is beacuse i feel more comfortable communicating this way..

tomorrow, i'll be going to my class chalet..ha..to be honest, i'm afraid that i might still be concentrating on work even when i reach sentosa..even today, my mind was so pre-occupied with work that i couldnt seem to relax when my classmates and i were shopping for the necessary stuff for e chalet..

God Bless Me.





oops..
im a free thinker..ha..=p

الأربعاء، 16 أغسطس 2006

Love Them, or Loathe Them?

what do you find in the newspaper everyday?

  • two nations unleashing hell in a central park?
  • chelsea splurging millions of dollars on yet another "star player" when people are suffering from poverty in third world countries?
  • a decapitated corpse was found in a cupboard of a motel whereas the head was squeezed into a tiny milo tin with the brain juices oozing out?

similar news has been featured on the newspapers day after day and people never really get sick of it ya? as technology advances, new weapons are invented and tested in wars between countries such as iraq and pakistan..now, kiling in war has evolved beyond bullets and bombs..we torture the enemies till their very last breath with incredible bio-weapon..it causes cells to explode in one's body and tears the heart apart through muscle strengthening? well, thats my imagination with no apparent knowledge bout all these stuff..

amazing enough, a stranger to the global and local news like me woke up at 8am, sat down on the sofa drinking a glass of HL milk, and read the newspaper?! i believe that's the 1st time in several months since i last read the newspaper on my own initiative..what was that in the newspaper? creative and ipod involve in a lawsuit?! how come i know nothing about it? that's because you havent been reading the newspaper, a voice in my head rings..suddenly, i feel like im a frog in the well..croak, croak..

as the bell strikes noon, the choir starts to sing and rays of light flood into the entire catheral, embracing every single soul with warmth to salvage them from their loneliness, fatigue and sorrows..i could suddenly see the light glaring into my sleepy eyes..ta dum..so that's what im supposed to do, im supposed to read the newspaper starting from today onwards..even though it took me 17 years to realize it, it's always better late than never..

up to this point of my entry, i suddenly realize that i havent touched on my theme yet..well, that's me..im the one who always stray away from the main objective and find out only after loads of crap..click..back to the main channel..

today's headlines had certainly caught my eye and seduced me into reading the once-thought-silly-piece-of-junk..in case ur wondering how it seduced me, there was a finger stroking the downside of my chin and a husky voice teasing beside my ear, "eat me..hmmm.. " i could feel my lungs burning within me as i swallowed my saliva down my throat and i was totally aroused by the mystery and pleasure..unable to stand the heat, i started to... ...
(the above content is rated m18 due to expicit details for wild and erotic imagination..)

man, why cant the damn fan work? i just bought it a fornight ago at best for 45 bucks..haiz..i guess its one money one good..

ok, back to the topic..see, i drifted away again..haiz..on the headlines it reads: Koizumi Defies Critics With Shrine Trip..for those who dont know who he is, Koizumi is the current japanese prime minister..well, not for long as he is stepping down in a month's time..in case u still do not know who he is, he is the guy who has long white hair which fluffs and curls upward at the tips, resembling a lawyer's "headgear"..as for the shrine, it refers to the infamous Yasukuni war shrine..it is constructed to commemorate the deaths of japanese soldiers in the world war 2..coincidentally, his visit to the shrine yesterday falls on the day which marks the end of world war 2 for the japs..this enraged several nations such as china and korea and...blah blah blah...things go on..aparrently, i aint fond of the reactions by the nations and aint going to discuss bout them here..

here's what i wanna talk about..this shrine was built in memory of the "brave", "heroic" japanese soldiers that had died in the world war 2..what do you think? are they really heroes? if i could still remember my facts clearly, only one or two years ago did the japanese government expose their doings during the world war 2 to the rest of japan..the japanese have been kept from the truth for decades and regard the fallen soldiers as heroes..to make things even more intersting, the fact states that 14 Class A war criminals are actually honored by the shrine?!?!

i personally feel that the japanese soldiers were actually brave figures..they fearlessly rampaged and conquered several lands through the command of their intelligent miliatry leaders..without these attitude and brains, how can one possibly work towards conquering the world? however, as resourceful as they might be, they have definitely used their talents for the wrong purposes..beacuse of their massacre as they roamed from place to place, countless lives were sacrificed..homes were destroyed and hearts were terrified..anyone who survived through the invasion was most probably scarred for life and his/her life had certainly lost much of its value..

so, should they be admired? do we treat them as war criminals or patriots? i would surely admire someone who dies for his country just to protect it..but what about one who fights for his country just for the sake of conquering? i dont have an answer to it..if i say i loathe them, what about genghis khan then? he's someone i admire a lot..he dares to dream, has the greatest ambition one can possibly have, fears nothing but feared by all, possesses outstanding vision, has the guts to take on a seemingly stonger enemy and is respected by all as a great man, a great leader..however, he conquered so many lands and caused so many deaths..so, what makes him different from the japanese? perhaps the reason is beacuse he didnt lost and surrendered in any of his wars whereas the japanese did? that's just a wild guess by me..or maybe, we can calculate all these by substracting the marginal costs from the marginal benefits of their actions..

all men are born to fight as it's the only way to grow stronger, isn't it?

yawns..i guess im beat for the day..
cya..

Love Them, or Loathe Them?

what do you find in the newspaper everyday?

  • two nations unleashing hell in a central park?
  • chelsea splurging millions of dollars on yet another "star player" when people are suffering from poverty in third world countries?
  • a decapitated corpse was found in a cupboard of a motel whereas the head was squeezed into a tiny milo tin with the brain juices oozing out?

similar news has been featured on the newspapers day after day and people never really get sick of it ya? as technology advances, new weapons are invented and tested in wars between countries such as iraq and pakistan..now, kiling in war has evolved beyond bullets and bombs..we torture the enemies till their very last breath with incredible bio-weapon..it causes cells to explode in one's body and tears the heart apart through muscle strengthening? well, thats my imagination with no apparent knowledge bout all these stuff..

amazing enough, a stranger to the global and local news like me woke up at 8am, sat down on the sofa drinking a glass of HL milk, and read the newspaper?! i believe that's the 1st time in several months since i last read the newspaper on my own initiative..what was that in the newspaper? creative and ipod involve in a lawsuit?! how come i know nothing about it? that's because you havent been reading the newspaper, a voice in my head rings..suddenly, i feel like im a frog in the well..croak, croak..

as the bell strikes noon, the choir starts to sing and rays of light flood into the entire catheral, embracing every single soul with warmth to salvage them from their loneliness, fatigue and sorrows..i could suddenly see the light glaring into my sleepy eyes..ta dum..so that's what im supposed to do, im supposed to read the newspaper starting from today onwards..even though it took me 17 years to realize it, it's always better late than never..

up to this point of my entry, i suddenly realize that i havent touched on my theme yet..well, that's me..im the one who always stray away from the main objective and find out only after loads of crap..click..back to the main channel..

today's headlines had certainly caught my eye and seduced me into reading the once-thought-silly-piece-of-junk..in case ur wondering how it seduced me, there was a finger stroking the downside of my chin and a husky voice teasing beside my ear, "eat me..hmmm.. " i could feel my lungs burning within me as i swallowed my saliva down my throat and i was totally aroused by the mystery and pleasure..unable to stand the heat, i started to... ...
(the above content is rated m18 due to expicit details for wild and erotic imagination..)

man, why cant the damn fan work? i just bought it a fornight ago at best for 45 bucks..haiz..i guess its one money one good..

ok, back to the topic..see, i drifted away again..haiz..on the headlines it reads: Koizumi Defies Critics With Shrine Trip..for those who dont know who he is, Koizumi is the current japanese prime minister..well, not for long as he is stepping down in a month's time..in case u still do not know who he is, he is the guy who has long white hair which fluffs and curls upward at the tips, resembling a lawyer's "headgear"..as for the shrine, it refers to the infamous Yasukuni war shrine..it is constructed to commemorate the deaths of japanese soldiers in the world war 2..coincidentally, his visit to the shrine yesterday falls on the day which marks the end of world war 2 for the japs..this enraged several nations such as china and korea and...blah blah blah...things go on..aparrently, i aint fond of the reactions by the nations and aint going to discuss bout them here..

here's what i wanna talk about..this shrine was built in memory of the "brave", "heroic" japanese soldiers that had died in the world war 2..what do you think? are they really heroes? if i could still remember my facts clearly, only one or two years ago did the japanese government expose their doings during the world war 2 to the rest of japan..the japanese have been kept from the truth for decades and regard the fallen soldiers as heroes..to make things even more intersting, the fact states that 14 Class A war criminals are actually honored by the shrine?!?!

i personally feel that the japanese soldiers were actually brave figures..they fearlessly rampaged and conquered several lands through the command of their intelligent miliatry leaders..without these attitude and brains, how can one possibly work towards conquering the world? however, as resourceful as they might be, they have definitely used their talents for the wrong purposes..beacuse of their massacre as they roamed from place to place, countless lives were sacrificed..homes were destroyed and hearts were terrified..anyone who survived through the invasion was most probably scarred for life and his/her life had certainly lost much of its value..

so, should they be admired? do we treat them as war criminals or patriots? i would surely admire someone who dies for his country just to protect it..but what about one who fights for his country just for the sake of conquering? i dont have an answer to it..if i say i loathe them, what about genghis khan then? he's someone i admire a lot..he dares to dream, has the greatest ambition one can possibly have, fears nothing but feared by all, possesses outstanding vision, has the guts to take on a seemingly stonger enemy and is respected by all as a great man, a great leader..however, he conquered so many lands and caused so many deaths..so, what makes him different from the japanese? perhaps the reason is beacuse he didnt lost and surrendered in any of his wars whereas the japanese did? that's just a wild guess by me..or maybe, we can calculate all these by substracting the marginal costs from the marginal benefits of their actions..

all men are born to fight as it's the only way to grow stronger, isn't it?

yawns..i guess im beat for the day..
cya..

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